![]() ![]() How will I allow you to love me If I cant first love who I am. and if I cant love myself how will I allow other people to love me. so all in all my love what I’m really saying is that I need to love myself right now, because I know I don’t love myself. You see my love I’ve decided its better off being completely and utterly alone and I mean that with everything, no friends, no one to care for the only people are family but even then I’ve started to push some away. But that could just mean I’m being cynical, but all I think about is how can I trust? I trust no one at this point. I know that love possibly exists but I don’t want to find it. I can tell you that I’ve been hurt that my heart has felt pain, but in the end I didn’t love, I just lived through an experience that has now become a mere memory. To be honest I don’t even know what love is I’m only 18. It would also mean I’m more alone than I thought, and I don’t need to play pretend. Hell, I actually don’t have an imaginary love because then that would be sad. One day I shall come face to face with you and maybe ill actually feel love, but as of right now you don’t exist you are just merely a figment of my imagination. ![]() ![]() Alright so I’ve decided to give this a chance though I might do two in one day depending on how im feeling but really I just need ideas to write and to let myself find some creativity while im trapped in this hole of depression so here we go DAY 1: write a letter to the love of your life. ![]()
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